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Today: Day 2, Changes Already – A Pin a Day

14 Aug

So yesterday was alright.

I didn’t run as an entire cold front dumped itself on Milton Keynes, and, after a couple of weekends a go when I ran 10k in the pouring rain. It didn’t appeal to me.

This made me realise.. I’m not motivated to run.

At this moment in time I dread every training run. My “go out and see how things are” runs are ok, because i literally just go and see how it is. But training runs with distances and pacing… well they are turning me into a bit of a nervous wreck.

So I’m pulling out of my half marathon at the end of September.

I started running to challenge myself and i ended up enjoying it. Now if i’m not enjoying it I don’t want to do it or finish any distance i’m on, or anything that happens on a run completely phases me, and i’m ruined. Then I feel like a failure.

Why continue to train for something you aren’t looking forward too?

When I was training for Paris, I was really looking forward to it. Yes I was scared, Yes I was nervous, Yes I didn’t think I would make it, but I believed I could, and I enjoyed pushing myself. That’s just not there this time.

I’ll get it back I’m sure! But right now It can’t be on the table.

So, I guess that means I can throw myself in my next annual goal of losing 10lbs (Half the issue with the Half was that it wasn’t really on my ‘plan’.. ).

CORRECT!

I really like this idea of “a pin a day” as well, something little to push me through the next few weeks.

My weight on my motivation board got to 186 pounds, which means to reach my goal i need to get to 176.

I just weighed in today and i’m back up to 191 pounds 😦

I can’t lose motivation again…

10lbs to go! That’s what I have to focus on… so I guess I have two goals, the realistic 191 – 181, and the ideal of getting it down to 176.

So lets hope my pin a day helps with it!

Today i’ve pinned the best butt workout. I’m gonna lay my mat out on my landing and have a good time of it 🙂

best butt

Yesterday I managed pretty much everything on my list, except the milkshake… but we ordered cookies so that’s still fun 🙂

Now today I’ve just gotta hope my knee doesnt die when I start this.

Talk Tomorrow!

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Today: I finally win

30 Sep

From the title of this post and the last couple I have posted, I think it’s time to properly announce myself. I have been 4 weeks without my citalopram, Charlie flushed my remaining 3 pills as it did get to a point where I just wanted to start again, but they are gone.

As are my twitches and any other nasty side effects, except the presence of a reduced appetite. Which if I’m honest, I’m not complaining about!!

I’m happy that its over with. Now I can get back onto my exercises, plan what I’m going to be doing, and not be hindered by stupid panic attacks. It also means I can get back to blogging about f1. And building up my science blog more! Better write my to do list for tomorrow 🙂 it’s nice to feel free again!

Today: The Olympic Shame

16 Jul

I hope you read the following letter, and pass it on.

To Whom it may concern,

I was dead excited to receive an Olympic ticket allocation. I was also excited to see that there would be a travel card included to, having just moved out to Cheltenham, this was going to be expensive.

Except that is where my excitement stalls.

The travel card is only valid for London Zones, meaning that I have to pay to get to London either by train or coach. £100 for the train to arrive in time to miss the first hour of event and then walk and queue to get in, or the coach, well I tried to find this out, but apparently the Royal Artillery Barracks isn’t an Olympic Venue that coaches travel to, or at least that is what the useless journey planner with it’s “book now” option won’t let me pick. I can select this venue but the redirect won’t let me do it. Useless.

So I have to sell my tickets. Why? I can’t afford over £100 for travel to the Olympic games. That’s 2 times the cost of the tickets. A cost I doubt I will get back because of the poor organisation with the Olympic ticket allocation. I have to post them back at my own expense, then hope they sell them on and allocate them back out to ensure I get the ticket price refunded. Which doesn’t include the £6 delivery charge.

So I would like to voice my utter disgust at LOCOG, Yes well done you have ripped down peoples homes to create a fantastic Olympic park. A park where everyone is proud. But be damned if anyone can get there who lives outside the Olympic travel zones. 

I hope my frustration has come across, if it hasn’t then rest assured that I will not be the only hacked off one, There are already plenty out there who didn’t get close enough to tickets, even though you said “no tickets have gone to corporate sponsors”, I guess I’ll have to enter a Llyods TSB competition to go instead. O LOOK.

The games will be a success, but your organisational skills will be used as an example on how to royally piss off a nation.

Yours

Harriet

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Thank you LOCOG for being useless. Tickets are now VOID.